Day 8 Stims: F*@* This!!

I quit drinking for this

Wednesday, February 17

I’m tired AF! That’s it, that’s the update.

I feel a little bloated. I was awake for 2.5 hours and had to take a nap. I’m still super tired 😫. I’m hungry, but everything sounds gross. My nip nops are starting to get sore. So, my body is feeling the hormones at this point. 

It’s day 8 of stims, and I feel like a pro at injections now. I did both super fast today with zero issues.

Thursday, February 18

Well, I ended up crying today. I was already pretty bummed about only having eight follicles at my last appointment, and at my appointment today, I found out the three on the right were growing slow. There are six on the left ( good news, I guess). So, I have to stim today, tomorrow, and go for another scan on Saturday. I don’t know what will happen if the three on the right don’t grow enough for retrieval on Monday or Tuesday. I guess I’ll be down to only 5 or 6 follicles and praying all of them are mature, fertilize correctly, and turn into healthy little embabies. It’s not a lot, and it’s nothing I was close to expecting my experience to be like. As far as I knew, I had no problems with egg quality or quantity. So, I’ve been a little shocked by my lack of quantity. I hate my right ovary right now. I feel like my body is betraying me and I feel let down just like I did with my loss in November. I just pray my body does its thing. I feel the side effects from all of the hormones and what feels like my body gearing up for ovulation. 😩 This is an exhausting process, and NOW I know what everyone is talking about. This shit wears on you, and it’s the emotional stuff that messes you up the most. What a roller coaster. I 👏QUIT 👏DRINKING 👏FOR👏 THIS...W👏T👏F👏?!

I don’t want to do this again. This is honestly the first time the possibility of round 2 has crossed my mind.

Lord, help me.